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Transcript 20- Ada

“I still have this really intense relationship to desire. And when people desire me, I automatically owe them something… um, favors or flattery or my body or just… I don’t know, anything. Comfort. Um, the truth is, no. I mean, when someone is good to you or they’re just doing what they should do, like as long as you’re a good person and they like you and you like them, when someone is good to you, that’s face value how they should behave. And it just takes acknowledging that and being gracious to that and… finding ways to… you know, pay it forward. That’s not charity, it’s just love. It’s like, intimacy with someone on any… any sort of level.”

Transcript 19- Helena

"So my abuser was also my rapist and so recently, especially with the “me too” movement, which I'm so excited about, I'm really glad it's being talked about. However it's being talked about so much and pretty much everywhere I look... sometimes it's hard to get away from those conversations. So there will be moments in time where... for example, unfortunately the Brett Kavanaugh case, that was the worst bout of depression that I've really, really long time."

Transcript 18- Christina

"I feel like with narratives about men...there's more… I don’t want to say it's more heroic but it's like there's more of this sympathy. It's like, “what could have brought a man down to that?” Maybe... maybe... but with women it’s like monstrous and it's... twisted and it's not romanticized in the same way. Like all these tales we get about like... sad.... and I like a lot of the stories…. like I love a lot of movies or stories that are about like the tortured man. Cause it's like sympathetic regardless of gender-- I can recognize, you know? But with women... I feel like complex female villains... who are they? Like no, they don't exist a lot of times."

Transcript 17- Charlie

"I think I still struggle with... when I do get these anxiety attacks and especially, um, it is when I'm at home, um, it's... really hard because I feel like I have grown so much as a person. I have put all of these things behind me so it's really frustrating to have to still deal with these lingering consequences that like... no longer have any connection to like, you know, my life. Like... I'll just start like crying out of nowhere. I'll be like, this is for no reason. This is just because like, my amygdala is fucked up and that’s… that's frustrating."

Transcript 16- Grace

“After I got discharged…like it was tiring. Um, because like I kind of had to tell different groups of people different levels of stuff. Um, but it was... I don't know, it always felt like I was like...reborn even though that sounds kind of cliche, but… it just felt like... I was who I was when I was like 5, like almost as if I... I was like that child part of myself before I even knew anything bad was happening. Almost as if my trauma could undo its effects.”

Transcript 15- Kim

"I like called student counseling… and I was just like, “I feel really suicidal”. And they were like, “do you have a plan?” And I was like, “no”. And then they were like, “are you stressed over midterms?” And I was like, “I guess”, and then they were like, “oh, well, is there anything you can do to like calm down?” And I was like… “I like… I feel like I’ve been like pretty depressed for a while. Like I don’t have any interest anymore”. And they were like, “that seems like a really long term problem that we can’t address right now. Um, like… is there anything you can be doing right now that might help?” And I was like, “I guess I could sleep”. And they’re like, “yes, yes, that sounds great. Go to sleep. And um, then try to get some work done”. I was like, “oh shit”."

Transcript 14- Larry

"And what that means, I think, is that suffering gets divinized in Christianity. Um, where like, “oh you too are redeeming us through your… through your pain and don't worry when you die and you're taken up to heaven, to the Kingdom of God, everything will be fine. You'll be whole and complete and fine” Fuck you. Fuck you. Like fuck that. Fuck that concept that my suffering is somehow a holy like… and that I shouldn't try to fix it because of that, like, no, we should try to fix the world actively. Like you… fundamentally should leave the world a better place than you found it. Like god, you need to do that."

Transcript 12-Evilyn

"Being a woman and being ace have certainly like mixed in a lot of places in my life.... like the expectation to have sex or to be a certain way about sex is something... for women it's something that makes sexuality complicated because on the one hand, like I don't like... I'm not sex repulsed, so sex is sex, it's whatever. But I've had people respond like, very negatively to the idea that I don't want to have sex just because, and the idea that I might just want to have sex just because."

Transcript 06- Emma

“They work on... levels of rage and sadness and joy and fear and love that are not societally acceptable for modern 21st century Western people... People say exactly what they mean and they say it to the gods and they say.. they break open their own ribs and show everyone your heart and are like, “this is what I'm feeling. This is exactly what I'm going to do. I am feeling... I am feeling this feeling so heavily that it is going to shake the earth and rent and the heavens”. And I think everyone feels like that. Everyone has that capacity for emotion and we are never allowed to express it because we're overdramatic or we’re sensationalizing or we're... making it up.”