"When you get closer to graduating, you get really anxious, especially when you have experienced depression and when you have experienced, um... thoughts of suicide. Because... especially for an extended period of time... because you truly never believed that you would get there."
“They work on... levels of rage and sadness and joy and fear and love that are not societally acceptable for modern 21st century Western people... People say exactly what they mean and they say it to the gods and they say.. they break open their own ribs and show everyone your heart and are like, “this is what I'm feeling. This is exactly what I'm going to do. I am feeling... I am feeling this feeling so heavily that it is going to shake the earth and rent and the heavens”. And I think everyone feels like that. Everyone has that capacity for emotion and we are never allowed to express it because we're overdramatic or we’re sensationalizing or we're... making it up.”
"I think that one thing that I’ll be doing for my son specifically in regards to mental illness is… we’re gonna talk about it… uh, there’s gonna be a lot of not shame. And like for me, one of the biggest things is like talking about like neurodiversity and how not everyone’s the same and how it’s ok to feel things, like it’s very important to me to raise a… specifically a boy who knows it’s ok to have feelings. "
“Um, once I got my binder I was so much more comfortable giving hugs, it was such a strange, unexpected switch. It was really, really weird, but I just felt like it wasn't the strange part of my body that would be sexualized in that context anymore.”
"So I got married quite young, 21. And uh… and it was not unusual in those days, but I never had a period to be on my own to navigate my own life. And that would have helped me, I think, to have more self confidence"
"It's a question of... what do you do with that sort of anger? Within the context of the relationship, it led to me lashing out against the abuse, but in ways that I actually ended up feeling guilty for... and that's part of what kept me in the relationship for so long-- because of my guilt, I felt that I didn't deserve any better."
"If I ever want to heal myself from my own destructiveness, I need to take responsibility for what I’ve done in service of my eating disorder and forgive past me for turning to such destructive means to handle life, since these measures were all I knew to survive each day." "So many people in the recovery community preach that you should love your body the way that it is and that your body is perfect the way it’s supposed to be naturally and that’s obviously not helpful for trans people because our bodies are the things that are causing us so much pain"
Cassandra was admired by the god Apollo. In efforts to seduce her, he offered her the gift of prophecy. After receiving the gift, she changed her mind and rejected him. Angered, he spat into her mouth and cursed her so that none of her prophecies would be believed. She was seen as a liar and … Continue reading
The Cassandra Transcripts 