Transcript 17- Charlie

"I think I still struggle with... when I do get these anxiety attacks and especially, um, it is when I'm at home, um, it's... really hard because I feel like I have grown so much as a person. I have put all of these things behind me so it's really frustrating to have to still deal with these lingering consequences that like... no longer have any connection to like, you know, my life. Like... I'll just start like crying out of nowhere. I'll be like, this is for no reason. This is just because like, my amygdala is fucked up and that’s… that's frustrating."

Transcript 16- Grace

“After I got discharged…like it was tiring. Um, because like I kind of had to tell different groups of people different levels of stuff. Um, but it was... I don't know, it always felt like I was like...reborn even though that sounds kind of cliche, but… it just felt like... I was who I was when I was like 5, like almost as if I... I was like that child part of myself before I even knew anything bad was happening. Almost as if my trauma could undo its effects.”

Transcript 15- Kim

"I like called student counseling… and I was just like, “I feel really suicidal”. And they were like, “do you have a plan?” And I was like, “no”. And then they were like, “are you stressed over midterms?” And I was like, “I guess”, and then they were like, “oh, well, is there anything you can do to like calm down?” And I was like… “I like… I feel like I’ve been like pretty depressed for a while. Like I don’t have any interest anymore”. And they were like, “that seems like a really long term problem that we can’t address right now. Um, like… is there anything you can be doing right now that might help?” And I was like, “I guess I could sleep”. And they’re like, “yes, yes, that sounds great. Go to sleep. And um, then try to get some work done”. I was like, “oh shit”."

Transcript 14- Larry

"And what that means, I think, is that suffering gets divinized in Christianity. Um, where like, “oh you too are redeeming us through your… through your pain and don't worry when you die and you're taken up to heaven, to the Kingdom of God, everything will be fine. You'll be whole and complete and fine” Fuck you. Fuck you. Like fuck that. Fuck that concept that my suffering is somehow a holy like… and that I shouldn't try to fix it because of that, like, no, we should try to fix the world actively. Like you… fundamentally should leave the world a better place than you found it. Like god, you need to do that."

Transcript 12-Evilyn

"Being a woman and being ace have certainly like mixed in a lot of places in my life.... like the expectation to have sex or to be a certain way about sex is something... for women it's something that makes sexuality complicated because on the one hand, like I don't like... I'm not sex repulsed, so sex is sex, it's whatever. But I've had people respond like, very negatively to the idea that I don't want to have sex just because, and the idea that I might just want to have sex just because."

Transcript 09- Lilith

"When I was a little like my mom, she was like, an authority, you know, her word was, you know the truth and she… she just came off as powerful, menacing like this… almost like tyrannical person… when I was a child. More and more like I see her growing old and I see myself, you know, living my life and you know, and gaining confidence in myself and she’s… I can see her just for her… I can see her vulnerabilities now and she’s not as threatening as she was before, like when I was little."